blackout!

"

Yeah
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin' and smashin' and crashin'
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness

"

secret#27

I just don't know what to think anymore...

superficial bullshit

RAW MEAT!

blown

Oh Really...

Scataday.

Scrambled & Fried,

Snuggled up together

Like old times,

I really shouldn't be here!

But I miss this too much.

Bite Me.

Your So Lovely :)

LONG WEEKEND.

HSC

simple

I really need someone right now, to just pick me up and tell me everything will be alright, that no matter what happened then, whats happening now and and what will happen when... they will be there regardless, to not give up on me, to sacrifice to fight for what we have to finally be happy and not have to please everyone else, I want just for once to be happy without having to feel guilty about it or like I owe someone an apology. Why does everything have to be so

hard just this once could it be a little bit easier.

I really need you...I really need him right now...

but i think I'd rather just be alone,

no dramas, no anything, nobody.

Simple as that!

FML

:)

dilemma

Something new or something old? Or noone at all ?

Ahhhh ! what do I do!

interesting.....

I'm bored and found this on tumblr,
I'm not proud of all things
I've done and things I've yet to do
but I shall not regret them regardless

Cross off the things you’ve done in life so far:

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone. *
Smoked cigarettes. *
Got so drunk you passed out. *
Rode every ride at an amusement park. *
Collected something really stupid. *
Gone to a rock concert.*
Helped someone. *
Gone fishing. *
Watched four movies in one night.*
Gone long periods of time with out sleep. *
Lied to someone. *
Been dumped. *
Snorted cocaine.*
Failed a class. *
Smoked weed.*
Dealt drugs.*
Taken a college level course. *
Been in a car accident. *
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid, gear). *
Watched someone die. *
Been to a funeral. *
Burned yourself accidently. *
Ran a marathon. *
Your parents got divorced. (love child)
Cried yourself to sleep. *
Spent over $200 in one day. *
Flown on a plane. *
Cheated on someone. *
Been cheated on. *
Gone skiing.
Had a best friend. *
Lost someone you loved. *
Shoplifted something. *
Been to jail.
Had detention. *
Skipped school. *
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. *
Stolen books from a library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. *
Had an online diary. *
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
Had a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play. *
Been fired from a job.
Swam with dolphins.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written Poetry. *
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12. *
Had surgery.
Taken a taxi. *
Overdosed. *
Had a drug or alcohol problem. *
Had a hamster.
Pet a wild animal. *
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing. *
Dyed your hair. *
Got a tattoo. (WANT) !!!!
Had something pierced. *
Got straight A’s.
Taken pictures with a webcam. *
Started a fire. *
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

boy oh boy!

"I want to be the one to tame you. I don’t want to rob you of your reckless ways or take away your bad boy image. But I want to tame you, only a little. I want to be the one you come to when you need calming down. But I want you to take your anger out on me, not physically, violently but I want you to scream at me and I want to scream back. And I want the both of us to know that this our release, our only release. I don’t want sugar-coated bullshit. I have no time for sugar-coated bullshit. I want the raw truth. I don’t want love. I want pain, fear, rejection, hurt. But I want to feel real. Even if I feel all these things I want to know that you’ll still be there for me. We’d convince everyone. Forget what I said, of course I want love, but I don’t want it in ways people are supposed to give it. I know we could work. Otherwise I wouldn’t have spent nearly as much time as I have thinking about all of this."

Wolfpack.

My Friends are Fucking AWESOME!

Thanks for everything guys:)

You & I Both.

"

Unsuspicious nobody cares for you
You’re so fucked up again
You laugh at nothin’ in the pouring rain
Try to tell yourself you’re not insane
You fool, I hate you sometimes

Hey, you know it ain’t coincidental that you’re lost in place
It’s drippin’ off your face, and you’re losin’ your precious mind

Send me a postcard if you get that far
You got a couple pennies in your rusty jar
The truth you’ve been "gone" for awhile
It’s hard lookin’ at you when you look that way
With your one night stands and your sleep all days
Ooh you’re such a slut sometimes
You’re losing your mind

"

CREAMCRAMCREAM

They say money can't buy happiness...

If only I had a little to test that theory

Sweet Sundays

You & I

Fuck The Past

Fuck the Future

FUCK right now!

Your so sweet how could I have resisted...

butterflies

I don't even know yet...

but for some reason when I talk to you

I can't help but smile like a little kid,

the highlight of my day lately has been our conversations

you are definitely not the person i expected to make me feel this way,

but I'm hoping these feelings are real

I'm looking forward to finding out:)

Paper Disorder

OH MY!

:)

There is still alot of room for improvment

but right now I'm really loving

everything I have in my life.

Not everyday is a great one

But I've had a smile on my face the whole time.

And NO! I regret Nothing so Fuck Ya!

lieslieslies