2013...Come On In!!

So here we are again, another day, another year on fast approach, another 'New Year Post'. Even though 2012 was a year I think could pass more as a mere millisecond of an insignificant moment. It was here and now it's almost gone soooo It would be silly of me not to do my usual end of year spiel. What can I say about 2012...nothing really that excites myself or you to the core...but I guess it was a year of "Shoulda,Woulda,Couldas" so to speak. With out draining on too much I shall sum it up quickly, mainly just so I can see if I have the ability to recollect the past 12months and to so I myself have this one as a memory to look back on when someone someday somewhere asks me "so what were you doing in the year 2012"! and two so I can look at the overall picture of this year....ok...2012:First "overseas trip" (Vanuatu), first year I have had finally had some sort of connection with 3 certain people (who will remain anonymous)as all 3 were mere fleeting moments but all 3 were memorable ones so I shall leave myself a mental note here of that, I lost a close friend (and no she did not die!) I was hospitalized for minor injuries due to assault in Hyde park from 12 crazy bitchzzzzzz, I started my first full time 9 to 5, Monday to Friday job in the corporate world and lasted 6 months before I was just about ready to jump out the office window. I gained several new and valuable friendships, I was unemployed for a long period of time, I was (or should I say am) in debt, I applied to design college...and I got into to design college. So that pretty much sums up 2012 in a nutshell, not to exciting and I am kind of glad to be honest for once that this year is coming to an end! I am not going to waste time blabbing on about my resolutions because lets face it half the time they are the same ones from last year. All i can say is I hope 2013 is actually a year of accomplishments,achievements and adventures and I say hope with an emphasis as how can I promise something to myself that I know is not in my complete control. So smell ya later 2012 I'm shutting the door on you and WELCOME 2013 come right on in!!

Oh Marvin.

Lola Versus

Spike Lee

Running On Empty

But the mistakes behind me

cast shadows to remind me...

Test Shots

Took some head shots today for Candice's makeup section of her portfolio.

These are two of the pre makeup shots of Charis & Jenny that I quite like.

 

Inbetween

 

Rings Around My Eyes

"Do you still feel younger than you thought you would by now
Or, darling, have you started feeling old yet
Don't worry, I'm sure that you're still breaking hearts
With the efficiency that only youth can harness
And do you still think love is a laserquest
Or do you take it all more seriously
I've tried to ask you this in some daydreams that I've had
But you're always busy being make-believe
And do you look into the mirror to remind yourself you're there
Or have somebody's good-night kisses got that covered

Well I'm not being honest, I'll pretend that you were just some lover
Now I can't think of there without thinking of you
I doubt that comes as a surprise
And I can't think of anything to dream about
I can't find anywhere to hide
And when I'm hanging on by the rings around my eyes
And I convince myself I need another
And for a minute it gets easier to pretend that you were just some lover"

Hiatus Kaiyote

Amazing Melbourne group called Hiatus Kaiyote , only recently formed mid 2011, The singer Nai Palm has such a sweetness,yet extremely powerful and soulful sound to her voice that captures you instantly and gets your mind wandering off into that day dream like state. They are currently touring now across Australia before going on an international tour. I'm hoping I will be able to make it to there gig at FBI Social on Thursday night tickets are only $18, and it be pretty good getting to experience them live while they are still so fresh on the scene, I have no doubt in predicting that once more people catch wind of their Fuckadelic earthy, soulful sounds they will definitely get quite a following.

 So Check it!

1.04

I have stopped writing as much as I use to...it’s strange really, once upon a time this blog contained every thought, every defiant moment, every heartache and every dream I had and nowadays it's almost empty. Is it because I no longer have the time to waste writing my silly fleeting thoughts on a blog because it does not mean anything to me anymore? Maybe! But in the time I have stopped to document my life’s details on this "silly blog" have I really been doing anything that is much more worthy of my time. I honestly don't know if I have. The past two years have come and gone so quickly that I feel I have not even had the chance to embrace them properly or utilize the time I have had to the best of my ability. It's kind of crazy how one minute you’re this naive kid with the world at your feet and BOOM your an "adult". You’re at this point where you no longer can carry around that carefree, "worry about it tomorrow" kind of attitude. Life seems a lot more still these days, the things that once use to excite me and thrill me no longer do, the moments seem emptier or less relevant. My self-worth and esteem have become even more dwindling since high school in some ways. I have grown up, I am more realistic, more insightful and understanding but none of that really matters in the big scheme of things, in fact sometimes I think it makes it worse. Ignorance is bliss after all they say. Ever waiting for that monumental moment  and epiphany of some sort when something happens to decide whether or not you’re gonna make it in this lifetime or not, ever waiting  for that certain someone who shakes your entire being to the core and makes you forget all the bullshit. To be honest I am just rambling, I cannot sleep and it has been a while since I was an insomniac but my thoughts all of a sudden a running at me from every possible direction. So I think it’s time I start to filter them out again on here.

Serendipitous Flux

 Do you ever get that feeling after meeting someone and its been two days, and everything seems to be going really slow, and you start going out of your brain thinking about this complete...well stranger really.Well the past two days I have. These indescribably perfect events, they don’t happen to me very often...I tend not to let them happen either but they did and they all happened so easily but I’m scared as per usual that my insecurities will ruin it for me. The over analyzing of the moment, the leading days after of anxious anticipation as to whether or not I will see him again,hear from him again or if that's all it was... a perfect moment. It's been a very long time since I have gotten those first initial moments where you feel completely nervous, amazing, comfortable and dizzy all at the same time. I have this problem though that keeps seeming to reoccur over the past 2 years, the past few guys I seem to have been interested in have coincidentally just come out of long term relationships and are currently" emotionally unavailable", which to tell the truth I do not even know if I cared to much about at the time  I myself am "emotionally unavailable" too at the moment. But this time I hope I do see him again, just to share another moment, talk for a little bit and see if it was all just a figment of my imagination or not. This time though I shall leave it up to this beautiful stranger, no calls,no text and no facebook messaging!!! I shall remain impartial, and if he does not contact me, so be it I shall move on as always before any type of attachment grows, but if by some mystical force of the universe decides to make something happen and he does...well only time will tell.

Everybody'Looking For Something.

Gil

Long Day

"And lately, I 've forgotten who I am Lately my energy's just drained away And now my mind is workin' overtime It's been a looooooooooooooong day It's been a long day "