Time To Pretend

I'm feeling rough, I'm feeling raw, I'm in the prime of my life.
Let's make some music, make some money, find some models for wives.
I'll move to Paris, shoot some heroin, and fuck with the stars.
You man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars.

This is our decision, to live fast and die young.
We've got the vision, now let's have some fun.
Yeah, it's overwhelming, but what else can we do.
Get jobs in offices, and wake up for the morning commute.

Forget about our mothers and our friends
We're fated to pretend
To pretend
We're fated to pretend
To pretend

I'll miss the playgrounds and the animals and digging up worms
I'll miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world
I'll miss my sister, miss my father, miss my dog and my home
Yeah, I'll miss the boredom and the freedom and the time spent alone.

There's really nothing, nothing we can do
Love must be forgotten, life can always start up anew.
The models will have children, we'll get a divorce
We'll find some more models, everything must run it's course.

We'll choke on our vomit and that will be the end
We were fated to pretend
To pretend
We're fated to pretend
To pretend

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah

11:11

Lets fucking hope so....

What's Doinnnn

I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know
I don't know !!!

I want you, I don't want you, I want him, I don't wan't him, I want something more, I want nothing at all, I want to run free, I want you to chase after me, I want to be wild but it's taking it's toll, I care about you but I can't much longer, I miss you but i'm used to it now, I'm rarley alone but I feel lonley, I'm smart but I don't try, I push you away but come crawling back, I feel angry but in control, I feel sad but overally happy, I know what I want but i'm not sure it's what I need, I have dreams but I have nightmares to,

I Have you...but I don't.

save me.

determined.

I see better things yet to come...

YO!

afternoon delight

loathe

These Feelings

These feeling's come and go

but regardless I try to never let it show

It's not even about you this time

So don't you feed me another one of your lines

It's kind of like this big empty hole it's as if I got no soul.

My smile is bigger then most, my eyes are always wide open, even though deep down

I feel I am broken.

Pull me apart, Put me back together, Hold me in place,

dry tears remain on the cheeks of my face I wanna take this feeling away FOREVER

I clench my fist so I won't get pissed, I grind my teeth as I walk through the back streets,

I shine in the light, yet I camouflage so well with the night

When my mind should be asleep, it's racing around town, fuck counting sheep that shit never makes me feel week.

It's alright I guess though as the old saying goes "it's an everyday struggle just to make ends meet" thinking of quotes like that keeps me up on my feet

When I don't want to speak but want to be heard,

When I can't feel my feet and my head hurts,

When my eyes are all puffy and my brain is all stuffy

letting loose on my notepad,listening to some cool tunes those are the kind of things that help me get through, they keep me sane and stop me from going out my brain...

so I guess I cannot complain.

fiftyfiftyfiftyfiftyfifty!

"We could have been extraordinary together ...

rather then ordinary apart"

Utopiaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

"

Lalala la la

Everything will be perfect
Tonight and forever
The light shine off, the light shine on
Making our faces many colors
Everyone is moving
Like waves make an ocean on and on
Everybody's singing, yes
This is happiness happening

Lalala la la
Everything will be perfect
Everything will be perfect
Everything will be perfect
Tonight and forever

"

Unavailable.

The Rain

"Have you ever had a day that you wanted to erase?
Tear the page out the history books and try again
But you knew that you couldn't so you put on a brave face
and waited till you could make your escape
And when you finally got away
from the people and the gossip and the judgement in their gaze
You let your guard down and something just gave
All of a sudden, tears falling till they running down your face
Whatever it was, you fought with your friend
or your boss, or maybe you got a heart that won't mend
Or you struggling with the rent, or missing something you lost
Or maybe you're just tired of pretending
You feel the weight like a pain in your chest
till you strain and you ache and you break and you sob
And it's grey till it stops, till it fades
Till it's gone like the tears sorta washed it all away
Sometimes I like to think it's the same with drops of rain
That each one's just a tear falling off of God's face
Sitting all alone in the clouds looking down on us all
Watching every mistake that was ever made
Every bit of pain, every murder, every rape
Every person who's having a shitty day
Taking it all in till he breaks down and cries
Till his eyes dry up and he gets on with it again
And I had this very faith tested on an ordinary day

and you wait and you pray it'll stop
And if you stuck in a storm, then spare a second for the thought
that we all at the mercy of the gods
So instead of looking for somewhere to place the blame
Accept it as a part of that big lazy eight
Go outside and stand under the clouds
and embrace it as the rain keeps plummeting down
And say: Hush child, from the joy to the pain
It'll all wash away in the rain
From the million dollar brands to the tags on the train
It'll all wash away in the rain
From the birth to the dirt man, the cradle to the grave
It'll all wash away in the rain
What's been and gone will come again
It'll all wash away in the rain
So hush child, from the joy to the pain
It'll all wash away in the rain "

The xx

I could give you so much
Make you feel, like never before
Welcome, they said welcome to the floor

It's been a while
And you've found someone better
But I've been waiting too long to give this up
The more I see, I understand
But sometimes, I still need you

Sometimes, I still need you

I was struggling to get in
Left waiting outside your door
I was sure
You'd give me more

No need to come to me
When I can make it all the way to you
You made it clear
You weren't near
Near enough for me

Heart skipped a beat
And when I caught it you were out of reach
But I'm sure, I'm sure
You've heard if before

In "Our" Haze

hugs goodbye.

"we could always put it together again
you could've told me a lie, and a lie so thin, so thin
now everything's clear
day after day and the life goes on
and I try to see the good in everyone
if I ever find myself here again
I'll give everything "

atmosphere

"

you don't know me
you just left me
you don't know me
you just left me

And he was a man
Or so he thought
Paid attention to the lessons that he taught
Second hand me down blessing
She was short on patience
Carried person hated every day people
The plight of the pessimist
Habitual living daily schedule consisted of work
Television and sexual moments
But some times it gets so hope less
When non-sense raises an oct of thought blocks
With a firm grasp on the grudge they both clutched in the name of love
Fear of the results had push ever came to shove
Seduced for fun
Produce a lot of fight
Two youths on the run
Learning some truth about life
And when he stares at the stars he reflects on the moon
The time the talks they share walking around calhoon
And when she watches the look on his face as he sleeps
She recalls every inch as to how it got this deep

Now how am I to know you like the way I laugh
I can't read the map, no ones ever seen the path?
The one you take a bath with is the same on the freeze your path
Oh you going out? what time you goin be back?

Cause they were two perfect kids
In a too perfect world
Today the part of man and women will be played by boy and girl
Lets all take seats
Please quiet during the performance
Lift her pull her from the orchids

Trying to read the script but keep getting trapped in the margins
Lift them pull them from the gardens

Your horoscope says we should share an apartment
Lift them pull them apart from their gardens

Now she was smart
She grew up with this complex
That the people that surrounded her seemed to expect the world
And he was tall over six no attempt to predict the fall
Though he'd seen it all
Until his all became that girl
She said she loves the drugs
But when she comes down
She speaks about finishing
She's convinced its the last visit
He doesn't know the difference between come and go
Just give him one to grow and watch him collapse inside of a half pivot
She died her hair black
Maybe now she can relax
Maybe now the regulars will stare half as hard
He wears a old face and beer gut
Existence validation printed on the monthly statements
That comes from master card

He thinks she sleeps to much
She thinks he spends to much
He thinks her friends are jokes
She thinks he's out of touch
He thinks she drinks to much
She think he thinks to much
Its all another phase turning the page

in the book of growing up

She's has seen a lot of sex
He tried to hide his resentment
But their wasn't nothing thing left for them to label new
But sometimes the obvious ain't simple to see
Cause even the time that they killed
Wasn't something that she wasnt accustomed too
She never comprehended what to make of it
He was never quite prepared to study the reaching
Together they shared the sacred practices of breathing
The weather was fair how ever the hovering clouds weren't leaving

Discover the little drama demons that hide deep

inside the frame work
and live in That congested brain
They had old lovers on the side old flames
That some how managed to spark regardless of the pouring rains
And each time they mixed up the ingredients
They'd recheck the recipe to see maybe they're reading it incorrectly
Collect me consume me release me snuggle
Two geniuses putting together the pieces to a blank puzzle

Every time I chase a squirrel it rips apart my world
Every time I chase a squirrel it rips apart my world
Every time I chase a squirrel it rips apart my world
And every time I chase a squirrel it rips apart my world

"

Mad As Hell

4 medium.

block it out

Compare the pair...It's something I'd rather not share.
I just want to cover my eyes, and block these images out.

scars.

These scars keep pushing me away from you...

Overwhelming Thoughts

"I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go

And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside'

- The Killers, Mr Brightside

No Regret. No Sacrafice

"Only the insane equate pain with success."

Fantasy or Reality

"

The proper order of things is often a mystery to me.

You, too?

"

Love is a lie.

"
I fall asleep by the telephone
It's 2 O'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me where have you been?
Cause I can feel that you're gone

I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool

You can tell me that there's nobody else
But I feel it
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
But I see it
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know
Your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie

You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah you know what I mean
Could you be more obscene?

So dont try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.

You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
I know you're nothing but a lie
Your love is just a lie

"

life.

longgggggggggg weekend.

Party Party Party

Chillin & Grillin In Between
Fucked Up. No Sleep. Great Company. No Cash.
Fun Fun Fun.
Was an Epic Weekend!