If you have any sort or some reminiscence left of a heart, or a conscience i just thought I'd let you know
I fucking hate that i have to take shit for your actions once again, that I'm always made out to be the fool, the one who can't get over it when in fact i am over it, I was over it, I am over you!!, you and you're bullshit,you dragged me back in but no no noooooo no one saw did they, of course it was me who "chased after you", after all I am the pathetic one who is still crazy "in love" with you. it's been going on for so long, I don't even feel the need to justify myself to anyone anymore why should I? It's always gonna be this way it will always be my fault, I will always be the "slut", the "bad person", the "drugged up" girl, but that's OK because I know how it really is as that's enough for me,but will it ever be enough for them? are they that bored with there own lives that they must amuse themselves with mine? ....people think they know me, they don't, they just know what they have heard, it's all a game of Chinese whispers and when it finally gets out it's almost always twisted and fucked up. Your the pathetic loser, who is drugged up all the time and can't even come to terms with that, you are full of shit, you are the biggest hypocrite I know, you almost always twist the truth, you never think of the consequence to your actions, you want everything and everyone to love you and you don't care who you hurt to get it. Your the one who tells me not to doubt what you say, your the one who tells me you meant it...all of it! that you care about me more than anyone and it "tears you apart" when you hurt me, yet you still continue to do what your doing...but "after all the i dunno's and the heartbreak" you can go fuck yourself because the kinda shit i have gotten because of you and me or because of all the secretiveness, it's me who looks like an idiot, it's me who looses friends, gets nasty remarks, who has the "reputation" and i realise you didn't mean what you said any of it according to what I've heard.... who knows what the fucking truth is anymore. It's not even what you did it's past that it's how you chose to handle it...you didn't even give me the decency of an explanation or an apology or any type of communication at all for that matter. I at least deserved that didn't I? You have treated me worse then anyone I have ever known, but it's not me you should feel sorry for it's yourself, your just a fucked up little boy, who has done more acid then I could piss on . I would loveeeee to "bring you down plant your feet back on the ground", but I know one day you will get what you deserve, I got my fair share probably a bit more, but hey as they say...
every dog has his day
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