ummmm...

I keep thinking I'm done,

I've done it, its gone...but it's never gone, not really, superficially maybe yes.

But this seems to never end, as many time as I run away from it, from you,

I feel like I'm just ending back where I stated, it's ridiculous

a never ending marathon.

Well I never signed up for this, I surly didn't volunteer, so how?

How did i get caught up so bad?

How did everything get so deep? It's like the lights keep flashing on and off.

There are no more excuse to be made, no more question to go unanswered,

no more uncertainty.

One moment everything seems so clear and perfect and then...

it's quick to become all foggy again.
I think I understand something but I don't, it's been so long now and all these moments, all these words that have been said have resulted in what? What is this? Fucked if I know! I need time, I need space, I need to think thinks over...once again,

I need to not need this! It's hard,

But I'm strong...you know me, but sadly I don't know you at all...not anymore.