You were and I guess still remain just a beautiful stranger to me
You came into my life, at what I could say was really bad timing
but also good at the same time.
I honestly haven't been able to be like this with someone for a long long time now,
I seem to forget all about him when I'm with you, I don't compare him to you like I have done with others in the past and that little empty hole in my chest and my mind slowly began to close when you presence came about. I feel in a way that we are on the same level and there was or is something kind of intriguing or different about you then the others and maybe that's why I have been able to have been this comfortable and open with you as well as treat you differently to "them". But at the same time in saying this I realize I am a bit in over my head, and have probably thought to much into my feelings and thoughts, You seemed almost kind of perfect at first but now I realize that everything is not always as it seems. I began to think to much and stumbled across what I did not want to find, I found disappointment and then it happened the walls went back up and I secured myself in the safety behind them all my past trust issues came flying back into my head and now I know once again don't expect anything from anyone otherwise you just end up getting hurt or dissapointed I now know not to force anything, not to force feelings that may or may not be there, but to just let it be. I don't want to loose all hope that you are actually genuinely different to the others but at the same time I'm not going to try so hard to convince myself otherwise, I'm not going to do anything or search for any more answers if there not already there in front of me
because in the end curiosity just kills the cat.
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