and what!

Yer, it is kind of hard isn't it ay? I'm not going to pretend it isn't why lie... doesn't mean I'm pathetic, doesn't mean I'm going to let it ruin my day, bring me down when I'm with my friends. You may think I'm weak, that I'm a baby. I do not think I'm weak not when I'm in the presences of others that is. i have my moments like anyone i am after all only human. But after some of the things that have gone on especially of late i think i am pretty strong, but you wouldn't really know that would you, because you have no idea of what i have "gone through" or what has happen or what has been said, or about me at all for that matter. You know what I'm pretty sure it's probably alot worse then anything your going through right now, you seem to make out your life to be so terrible when in fact, if i had what you had i would be pretty pleased with myself but it is never enough is it. We need to create these fictional problems and false persona's just to make everything seem that little bit harder, enjoy it and stop complaining, but then again i don't really know you either so maybe your life is really really ridiculously unbearable yeah? i have some pretty solid reason to be upset, doesn't mean i won't be smiling this whole time and if you knew the truth you probably would be to, but you will probably never find out the truth, and trust me if you ever did the truth would hurt you, it wuld hurt real bad. But I'm not gonna make your life any "harder" then it already is. Your self pity and your fake perception of me and everything else is satisfying enough for me. Because i have alot you don't know about and most likely you know alot that i do not, we are both pretty sad and pathetic, maybe that's at least one thing we have in common? I'm just glad my life entertains someone.