I lay here every morning and night just staring at my ceiling, either i am trying to wake up so i can get up and get on with the day or i am lying here trying to shut my thoughts off that are slowly withering away into nothing so i can fall asleep. But i can't because you have gone and done something so unbelievably pathetic and terrible that i still can't get it through my head, i think i am still in shock, the way things were going i though they would be different. I don't get it nor do i understand it at all, did you intend this or are you just simply and plainly a complete asshole. I don't think i will ever know the truth but any bit of hope or trust i had in you has disappeared for good. I thought you would at least have the decency to call to tell me what was going on, but you didn't,you didn't even make an effort at all. Soo now to my great and believe me it is a very great disappointment to erase you from my life again, this time for good, unless you can some how change my mind but i doubt you will. You can forget all those secret days and nights, you can forget those "cute messages" you sent, you can forget those talks and you can shove your letter up your bum!, because i didn't deserve this after everything i have been put through because of you, have fun living a lie, because i won't be there next time you decide to be real again I'm not going to make anymore excuse for your actions or lack of them anymore. As far as i am concerned you are just some dickhead who broke my heart and decided that he had to keep walking all over the pieces, you are selfish and pathetic....but "i hate how i can't hate you...not even a little bit not even close...not even at all" I know you sure as hell deserve it.
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