My heart is screaming YES YES YES!!! but my head keeps telling me other wise, it's telling me to be realistic, not to get my hopes up, it's telling me to be sensible and strong. My gut is warning me, that things aren't always as they seem, that your words are in fact deceiving and deceitful and most of what you say is a lie. My gut is telling me something bad is going to happen, or that if something good does happen, you will continue to hold back from me and hide the truth, you will keep things hidden. At the moment i find it hard to trust you...I need to know that it is me and me only i know i am not one to talk based on the past but you lie about the most stupid and littlest things, and alot of what you say contradicts itself. Please don't take advantage of the fact that i believe you so easy and that fact that i can't stay angry at you because as soon as i see you i give in to that nervous smile of yours and can't stop smiling myself. Please don't disappoint me anymore, i know you are "trying" but i think you can try a bit harder...for me anyway?? You don't have to go it alone, we can do this together.
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