nothing left to hide,nothing left to prove. I'm not afraid to admit that...i have been and that i feel weak, pathetic, naive, wrong, right, angry, frustrated, sad,happy, alone, confused, lost. I don't know how long these feelings will last this time, comprehending it all is quite hard, getting my head around it all is even harder. All i know is that i was trying to do the right thing...by you and by her regardless of my feelings. I never asked for this, but then again i never said no. I gave into temptation i took a risk to fall and i did, i have no one to blame but myself. I know I'm hating everything and everyone right now, i know that all i want is to be alone and left alone i know i don't want to speak to you again because it hurts to much but i know your the only one who can make me feel any better. I know i may regret getting myself into this situation to a point but i guess it's just another challenge life has thrown at me and i will eventually as long as it takes overcome it,I've been here before Ive felt these feelings, i can do it, i just wish for once things would work out the way they seemed they were heading, i guess for now i need to bite my tongue again, put up with the pain, the loose the confusion and the heartbreak and in the advice of a close friend "sit back and let this one play out how the universe wants it to". I miss you, i hate you, i love you...goodbye... for now.
what will be will be, let the universe have what it wants with us, everything happens for a reason i guess.
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